Does anyone know what it’s like to feel like shit.
To feel like you’re existence is worth nothing?
I ask myself everyday why am I here.
My boyfriend is the only one who could care about me.
Him and well God.
I know I was brought down to this Earth for a reason.
I didn’t know that reason would be a punishment.
Because the only word written across my forehead is imperfect.
I can’t please anyone.
Because the choices I make are always wrong.
My lips are numb
My eyes blood shot from all the tears
My arms and legs shaking because everyday is lived in fear.
From the outside you could say I’m spoiled
With all the nice cars
And that pretty white iPhone.
But on the inside
That nice car has absorbed all my tears
The clothes help cover up my face
and that pretty white iPhone
knows all the things I’ve been through
taken by photograph
hidden in texts.
But buried underneath everything is my true emotions
A girl that doesn’t want to be around family
because all they do is call me a disgrace
But I force a smile upon my face everyday
To hide the exposure of any of the real me
I guess it’s let’s see how depressed we can make one child in a month…
I love how I’m trying to lose weight, yet I’m sitting here on tumblr eating a giant piece of triple layered chocolate cake…
He’s not the star quarterback
He’s not the hottest guy in school
He’s not every girls dream guy
He’s not a baseball player
But the thing is
Everytime I see him smile
My heart just melts
He is the cutest man I’ve ever have come to know
He makes me super happy
He treats me so well
He calls me beautiful everyday even when Im wearing no makeup and sweatpants
He makes me feel so special
I am so very lucky to call him my boyfriend
His warm hugs and passionate kisses leave me begging for more
I never want to leave his side
It’s no longer the same laying in bed alone
He’s my everything
I love him with my entire heart
He makes my days so much brighter and I am so very happy and lucky to call this man my boyfriend.
Even though we’re just teenagers
I call him a man because he treats a girl in a way that every girl should be treated
Each day I am living in a fairy tale and I hope that someday we will have that happily ever after.
Even thought his text only said good night, definitely made it a good night(: